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Okay just saying that these two days were fucking amazing, Lol even if we argue I honestly am lucky that I have my family. Shiiit, i can honestly say that I’m probably the most ungrateful person in the world. Logan makes me realize this, and even doe I know he’s right I still can’t bring myself to change myself completely.. Dammn.. Maybe I am bipolar. Shit. All I know is that I love my family and Logan &+ Im most definitely grateful for them<3

Okay so starting monday Im going back to my old self. Im tired of seein’ pictures of gorgeous girls who have the waist size of a width of a fucking pinky. Im sick of being fat. Its all my fault. I haven’t been strong enough to will myself away from that garbage people call food. Im also sick and tired of him sayin ‘you’re not fat!’ Like who are you lyin to cos obviously the scale &+ my clothes size isnt lyin to me. I want to be able to hid behind his body, to be a size 0 er something. I don’t fuckin know, i just want to be skinny &+ happy… i guess.. i need to be….